I don't make friend's easily. I don't really know how to maintain relationships. I move on quick. I don't call the very few people I love or even attend their calls. I have my moments of weakness. I give up many things I take up. I have an inferiority complex and I constantly worry that Iam not smart enough. I fight with no matter who, for what I believe in. I don't like to be told how to make my personal choices. I make mistakes and I believe in making mistakes. I worry I'm wasting time but not often do I act on it. I hate a lot of people. I don't belive in unconditional love. My beliefs usually contradict with the "society's".
I'm criticised and condemned by almost everyone for all that I'm. People judge me and label me. My loved ones advice me to change. My mom prays that God "blesses" me with "good thoughts". Friends have walked out of my life. It's been a very long time since I've heard anything good told about me.
But I don't want to change. Because, it doesn't matter if others don't like me for what I'm. I should like myself for all the faults I have, because even with all these faults I have not failed in life and that's a proof enough that, I deserve to be liked, atleast by me.
this is called frustration...
ReplyDeleteSo?!
ReplyDeleteThe point is not to lament about my woes.. The point is, this is what happens to anyone with values and anyone who is different and no on has to change to please any one other than oneself!
ReplyDeleteFantastic - dont ever change...People who want you to change are people living inside a virtual fence - they cannot come out... keep watching them hop about their cages :-)
ReplyDeleteDear author...Unconditional love is so true and valued only when it's shown the right way...be it any relationship..pleasing the receiver as they wish is faking your own self and finding happiness in their smile...obviously ppl 'll like you if you go by their way.. but when the receiver gets pleased by your random acts executed in your own way...n now that's what I call unconditional... accepting one as what they're...for that...we've to stop judging...also expecting...isn't it harsh to expect someone.. be it a friend or a lover to change themselves whom they've been the person for twenty years just for the sake of us...best wishes to you for finding an unconditional friend soon....
ReplyDeleteDisclaimer: the use of words such as "dear author" are in no way biased upon the gender of the author.
What about friends who neva wanted you to change, have always stayed with you and have neva let you down?!
ReplyDeleteYes darling. I've got few such friends and you are definitely one of them. Love u and thanku for sticking with me:)
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